In the Waiting Room

The scary thing about surgery, is that you don't know how long a person can last through the trauma of the procedure. You know the theory is sound; replace bad with good. But you don't know if there is a time limit. So you rush it; you push through the time spent in their unconscious state as fast as you can. You think it will stick like some kid's rolled eyes - in that face like mothers have foretold for centuries.

That's the fear in most things; time. "How slow will time pass without you; how can I alter this to get you back to me sooner?" When really we need to focus on the effectiveness of the task at hand. Not the time it takes. After all, time is merely a relative thing. A thing that we have designated with a title as if to suggest it is a constant, but time is always a variable. Always.

Everything is out there. Everything is now. And it always will be. That person will always be there. Maybe not in an action sequence following the preceding event, but as a pleasant "memory" that we can still have access to. Nothing is ever forgotten; it is only displaced. And yes; displaced not misplaced. Misplaced implies a timeline of progressing events. Displace involves a variety of moments - all equal in strength - all equal in distance from each other and shaped like a sphere so as to be equal distance from any sort of "center". This way, we know we are just as likely to "remember" something from 9 years ago as something 9 seconds ago, depending on how much magnitude we registered from the event. And that is a completely individual and subjective thing, so there are no "odds" involved. Complete crap shoot. Any moment is as likely as the next to appeal to us.

Only connect. That's the message of the universe right? Connect. But connect doesn't mean be exactly the same. It doesn't mean that we have universal principles (ie time) that behave the same across the board. It means that we need to understand our own relationship with it and take the time and effort to understand others' relationships with it so that we can communicate effectively with them.

We all experience everything. We are vast, contain multitudes, and have room to contradict ourselves. But we have to stop pretending that things like "time" are constants. It is a charade that benefits no one.